when that bbq sauce hits the spot

as much as i did one of the most important tasks of my to-do list, “choose recipes for week” (yes, the “the” is silent in personal lists - like the g in lasagna. IYKYK.)…..I ended up eating a chicken burger - the chicken being a frozen, store-bought chicken patty.

I’ve been going to bed so late, yet still aiming to wake up early and be “productive”. A hopeless romantic? Hmm. I don’t think this even makes sense. Scratch that last question then.

So yeah, I ate the burger and finished with a piece of cake I made the other day. Oh shit, I forgot to mention. I wanna share a sauce that has changed my life, “Diana Sauce - BBQ Sauce Gourmet Horney Garlic”. Delicious. If someone ever reads this, you should try it and see how you embark on a journey to become a better version of yourself.

Honey garlic shrimps and rice + Slow cooked Italian meatballs with green beans and garlic parmesan roasted potatoes on the side = recipes of the week. Let’s see how this all goes. Hopefully, 8+ hours of sleep will also be on the menu. How romantic?

sometimes u just gotta take time to NAME IT

it feels good to feel and breathe some fresh air. even if it led me to purchase a 7$ REGULAR SIZE ass bubble tea from fucking CHATTIME that obviously wasn’t that good. solid 6.5/10. wow. I am disappointed in myself, hmm tbh…not really. it’s not taking space in my head.

but at least i got some fresh air.

today was full of anxiety. chest pains and everything. i felt stuck. but i was still doing stuff like the lil things while avoiding the big ones… i’m still proud to have taken the time to:

• take some deep breaths,

• drink some water - 4 glasses to be exact

• turn on the diffuser to a relaxing lavender and bergamot blend,

• try to get a big task started by identifying its clear sub-tasks, at least i tried man.

• and FINALLY left my house to run an errand..on FOOT.

• forgot my NIP when it was time to pay for my meds…but solved the issue! with google play..yeah I was blaming the paypass technology but in the end it saved me…HURRAY!

• I cleaned my kitchen, as I have been doing every night for a while now

• made myself a cake that I’ve been wanting to make

• currently smiling, cuz I still did things. I spent lots of energy choosing products that I need to purchase cuz of a sale, making my Ikea order, looking for the Alchimist for my mom, and buying a carseat for kelz.

  • that’s what took the most time. and you know what? i can’t be mad at trying to be there for my mom and Kelz, and myself cuz I was choosing skin care products, and some items to organize my kitchen.

  • time flies. and I’m working on setting up the context to foster my success. and it is a….PROCESS.