I wanted to start with “Things They Don’t Tell You About Adulting”, but I decided not to troll. How grown am I, right? *simpson’s hiding gif* Well, adulting is a bitch, but it also coexists with perks. Let me break it down to you through some parts of my boring Friday. (Yes, with key points. I’m lazy, sue meh!):
Waking up with the mental motivation to get shit DONE #grown
Doing a healthy morning routine (wash face, brush teeth, take my medication, feed my dog, do a 1 page freewriting) while starving myself #grownish
Oh “I should get ready to leave and do groceries, and return packages from my non-responsible spontaneous online shopping spree” #grownthought
Nothing #notgrown
Friend is downstairs to pick up something, *taking advantage of this moment to eat a piece of bread and leave the house* #alil’grown
Time to run errands, while starving myself #grown, but also #notgrown, #grownish
YAYYY, I did groceries at a very good price. I was able to constantly ask myself “do you realllly need this? can you go for a healthier and cheaper alternative? do you have to get it NOW? check the price per 100g that’s written on the price labels to see what’s cheaper!” ouuuh. I can' tell you that I did a lot of back and forth, taking things, putting them back, being in a section for a while trynna make the “right” choice. #grown
Oh I forgot to say, YAYYY, I was SO excited to get stuff on sale that I could put in my freezer!!!!! Woop Woop! I was literally smiling under my mask in the supermarket #grown
Feeling SHAME for pressing “NO TIP” (why do they have to put it in caps?? oh. I think I just saw it in caps because I felt like the machine was screaming at me? GAH) when buying bagels at the counter. Huge step! But I still left the place looking down - avoiding eye contact. #notgrown
Reflecting on how it must be so shitty for Russians or people from Florida when watching American movies/shows cuz they’re so stereotyped and then remembering that I AM BLACK?? I laughed out loud while going up the stairs to my apartment. Come on now.
Finally eating something I made a couple of days ago, YES PAST SELF #grown
Conclusion: I got a long way to go (Cassie!). But STILL, I can be grown and not grown simultaneously.